-If only you can-

We are human being and being a human, we have limited abilities. There are tons of things that we wish to do. We just don't have enough time, money and not even likely almost impossible to do some of these 'wish-listed' things.

I have a dream, a wish that unlikely able to achieve. I wish that I can see and feel this world. This is world is so huge and we are so tiny. We are living in our own world and most of us know little about the 'world' beyond ours. What I mean the 'world' is actually the society, state and country that we growth up and live at. I only know how Malaysian eat, work and play. Even in my own country, Malaysia. I know so little about the cultures in my own country.

If, it always only if I can, I wish that I can no worry about money. Then I can grab a simple backpack with a camera, notebook and my laptop to start my journey. A journey to travel around. Most of people said the same things, Life is short, Travel while you still can. Well, I couldn't agree more. But absolutely not exactly like how they meant. Majority of the people, I meant those I know here in Malaysia, they want to travel to major cities or hot-spots.  As for me, I want a trip that can experience inspire me to be better person.

Every country has its own core cultures. I will love to experience them. Life is more meaningful, for those people living in the bottom of the pyramid in the society instead of those in the top of the pyramid. I don't know much. However, in my opinion, people who live in the top of the pyramid of society have mutual common identities: they are rich, powerful, and smart. In the other hands, people in the bottom of the pyramid, be it middle class or lower class of the society. Their life are mostly surrounded by daily routines that consist of simple things: get enough money for food, shelter, daily goods and get a better life.

We are human. If we have too much of blessings, we lost count of them. But when we able to see the world from different perspective, we will be recalled of all the blessings that we have with us. So, If only I can not worry about money for sustain a living, I will happy to feel other countries' culture in a better way.

-谢谢你，美好的2015-

一叠日历又来到最后的那么一页，
一张薄薄的纸，郑重告别旧的一年，
一年有三百六十五天，
一天二十四个小时，
一小时里每分每秒，
都在建筑着这个阶梯，
这个渐渐往上的梯子，
代表着慢慢流逝的青春。

新的一年开始的这一天，
大部分的人大概要感慨过往，
我也不免俗的跳进这个大潮流，
来写个感恩的简文吧！

谢谢啊，慈爱的上帝！
好感谢，好感谢！
若要计算您对我的恩典，
大概世上最先进的超级电脑，
也无法精准的统计你赐给于我的恩。

谢谢您，
给予我生命，
即使这些日子里，
有心伤难过，
有气愤难堪，
但我明白这都让我更珍惜生命美好的一切。

谢谢您，
给于我父母健康，
他们的健康是我最大的快乐，
谢谢您带我的侄女影彤来到这世界，
这是2015年最珍贵的礼物，
谢谢您让我亲爱的妹妹有个简单而感人的求婚惊喜。
万字难诉心里的感恩，
只能老套的再说，
谢谢你，万能的天父与大爱的耶稣！

-名的由来 / Why Sunny?-

My name is Sunny.

Most of the time, when i tell other person that my name is Sunny. Majority of them would ask the same question: "Why Sunny? I thought it is a male name?"

Why Sunny? Some would say:" Is it because of your always 'happy-go-lucky' and laugh a lot?"
Oh well, no! The reason is pretty simple. When I studied secondary school, people around me started to have their own English name. I was one of them that felt that having my own English name made me felt awesome and trendy.

Hence, I search dictionary (it was really a hard-copy of dictionary at that time). I once named myself 'Benice', 'Grace' and etc. But non of them last long as many people will have funny comments whenever I told them my english name, like:
'Grace? You are not graceful at all!'
'Benice? You wanna to be Be-Nice?'

So, I had to move on with choosing another English name. I like sunflower. I once have my email address as 'sunflowergarden@XXXX.com'. Once, I had a little internal mind-war:
Me A: "why not call myself Sunflower?"
Me B: "What? can't you choose a better name?  I am pretty sure that even more people will laugh at this name."
Me A:" If 'sunflower' is not a good choice, then what about just 'sun', quite cool, isn't it? "
Me B:"No!! This is too boyish!"
Me A: "..........."
Me B: "No other suggestion?"
Me A:" .......sunny....."
Me B:"I like this!"
Me A:"..........."

and this is the reason why I named myself as 'Sunny'. Simple reason, isn't it?

-知足-

五月天-知足
怎麼去拥有 一道彩虹
怎麼去拥抱 一夏天的风
天上的星星 笑地上的人
总是不能懂 不能知道足够

如果我爱上 你的笑容 要怎麼收藏 要怎麼拥有
如果你快乐 不是为我 会不会放手 其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
终於你身影 消失在人海尽头 才发现 笑著哭 最痛

那天你和我 那个山丘 那样的唱著 那一年的歌
那样的回忆 那麼足够 足够我天天 都品嚐著寂寞

当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
终於你身影 消失在人海尽头 才发现 笑著哭 最痛

如果我爱上 你的笑容 要怎麼收藏 要怎麼拥有
如果你快乐 不是为我 会不会放手 其实才是拥有

知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛
知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛
                                                                                                   

双子座，让两个极端活在我当中，
我很容易伤心哭泣，
但也很容易忘掉悲哀，
我想这是上帝送给我的恩典。

当我不开心时，
必须大哭一场，
然后沉睡一觉醒来，
事情就烟消云散了。

每天，看着其他人，
从他们身上读到，
“我比70%的人都幸运”
谢谢上帝，
让我容易感到满足。

只是，人有时还是有那么点儿不满足，
希望样样事情都是那么美好，
遇到不快乐时，
还是会埋怨上苍，
我想，上帝有时也会无奈吧，
每个人不开心时，
都会怨恨上帝。

也许，生活当中会有很多苦涩在等着，
但是，想到我拥有的一切，
我想，我的眼泪够用了，
足够，让我不快冲掉，
然后，被洗涤洁净的心，
可以，把尝过的幸福记得更牢。

当眼泪落在那本日记上，
记录悲伤的钢笔字迹，
被模糊掉了，
曾经的不快乐，
只化成一云云的泪迹。

所以，如果你还会掉眼泪，
相信我，事情还可以解决的。

-Greet-

I found this happened quite frequent lately...

via MSN or SMS or FB

--Msg ringtone: *Ding**Ding*--

Friend: Hey, How are you lately?
Me: Oh, I'm fine, Thanks.
Me: How about you?
Friend: .......
Me: What are you doing lately?
Friend:.......
Me: .......hello?

-Picture-

I like to capture moments. I like to snap what i think is beautiful, meaningful. I drove all the way back to salon from school. I found that m'sia do have beautiful tree which flowers bloom beautifully. Well, this is not the best scene...cause the beautiful trees grown on the junction...impossible i stop my car and snap it, right? therefore, i took this picture after the junction....when i'm still driving?? lol...

i wish to buy a camera...not a complex DSLR. a simple digital camera will do.

-Holding Hands-

Steve Green- Holding Hands
One day, far away, you gently won my heart
And one night, by candlelight, we made a vow to never part
And then it seemed just like a dream
When wide eyed, side by side
We faced the future holding hands

Years fly, they hurry by, the simple times are gone
Bills due, a kid or two, a week can feel eight days long
By fading light, let's kiss goodnight
And then we trace God's daily grace
Thankful we're still holding hands

There's a hope that won't let go
There's a truth we know
God is holding us
In His arms

Thoughts stray far away to all that lies ahead
In frail days when strength fades
Will we still mean all that we said?
Our love's secure, so rest assured
Come what may 'til that day
We'll walk forever holding hands

By God's grace 'til that day
We'll walk forever holding hands
                                                
Well, it's all started when i tried to find a few new praise songs for my mum, as she facing compact downpour miseries. I couldn't help her solve the problems but i try to get her some praise songs to soothe her.

Then i found this song in a online christian broadcasting radio. However, this song is not mainly praising the Lord. In fact, this is actually a christian love song.  But more into picturing a couple eternity love. If you attentive enough to the lyric, you'll definitely find how romantic it is.

'One day, long long time ago, we fell in love. Then, we married and promise that we'll never leave each other. It's amazing, for we can face the future together. Many years passed by, life never as easy as it used to be. We have children and tons of worries. Everyday seem to be miserable. Anyhow, we still thanks god for we still holding hands, and bear everything together. Days passed, we might lost in midst of clue reality, we might lost our faith, we might forget the vows that we have made. But, i know that, until the day we died, we'll still holding hands and face it together.'

Urhmm...The above is what i think the song try to picture, It reminds me the animation .... Nowadays, it's very common for couples divorce. How many couples will remember what they had promise at the day they first officially announced 'Husband and Wife'?  Most of them, once married, when responsibilities become greater than before, they started to blame each other. It's really a God's gift, if we can have a soul partner, who will never forget his/her vows and always love us.

-那个‘他’和‘她’-

On my birthday, we  adopt them

Little Didi wanna play the wheel

But mei mei don't allow

then dinner time!

first argument?

ya, i guess they quarrell

friend again?

friend edi!

so close~

They babies!

Mei mei become mummy

Husband and wife

Didi Always try to 'prison-break'

oopps! get caught?

                                                              
Years ago, on my birthday. My sis and i bought pair of hamster. Our very first pair of hamster. We had a gathering on my birthday, then we went to pet shop and....they went back home with us....

They died after 3 years. Some said it considered long life for hamster. Now, years after they died. I still miss them. However, pet a hamster before, i guess you understand, how adorable a hamster can be.. Mei mei is a fierce hamster, but only to her husband...She always wondering around when we let her out of he cage..she always push her husband out from the wheel...pity didi~...Mei mei doesn't look like an ordinary Syrian Hamster, cause she is larger than ordinary syrian. She is always steady, calm and cool. She always want a S-bodyshape, that's why she play the wheel from day to night~

Didi is a gentleman ( or maybe he really can't fight meimei?), he know when we talk about him...cause he'll still there and stare at us, when we gossiping...He plans a prison break with mei mei...that why they bite the cage for hours each day....thinking that maybe the iron-sticks will break...one day?

They give a lots of sweet memories to us. I miss you both, Didi and Meimei~

-Can anyone explain-

Can Anyone Explain
by Ella Fitzgerald & Louis Armstrong

Can anyone explain the thrill of a kiss
No! No! No!
But when two eager lips are pressed against yours
You'll know, yes, you'll know

Can anyone explain the glow of romance
No! No! No!
But when you hear the phrase "It's you I adore"
You'll know, yes, you'll know

And you will find, to give love a start
Don't think with your mind, just feel with your heart

Can anyone explain the wonder of love
No! No! No!
But now that you and I are sharing a sigh
We know, yes, we know

(Orchestal Break)

And you will find, to give love a start
Don't think with your mind, just feel with your heart

Can anyone explain the wonder of love
No! No! No!
But now that you and I are sharing a sigh
We know, yes, we know

                                                                    

As i mention before, in one of the previous posts. I love music. a lot! I have more than 10,000 songs in my pc. Music can always inspire me. I listen to all kind of music, rock, symphony metal, pop, acoustic, sentimental, classical, oldies and etc. I consume different music according to my mood. For instant, when i driving, i listen to rock, house, dance and other similar music. when i reading novels, comics, and other books, I'll definitely play some soft music, like acoustic, sentimental, instrumental..

errhpm...i guess i'm kinda off the line. This is not why i write this post. Ok, back to the topic. Can anyone explain what love is? I bet no one actually can define what exactly love is....You don't agree? Well, if you have few lovers before. Do you think each of them able to let you feel the same kind of love/feelings? I don't think so.

Mr. A might make you think love is give and take. Mr. B might make you think love is sacrifice. Mr. C might make you think love is blind...

Love can't be define. It can only be experienced!

-Beautiful sky-

19th July 2011

18th July 2011

18th July 2011

16th September 2010

16th September 2010

25th March 2011

25th March 2011

30th March 2011

30th March 2011

30th March 2011

 

30th March 2011

I always think that the residential area that i live in have beautiful sky.

Years ago, when i was in secondary school, my dad used to fetch me to school around 7a.m....my school located at the east from my house. When i heading to school, i enjoyed the beautiful sun rising from same side where we heading towards. The sky will then turn into various colour...it's very beautiful and peaceful.Sometimes, it started with a cool purple and pink sky when the sun breaking dawn. Then it will slowly change its beautiful mask into orange and yellow color...finally, a clear blue sky.

The good thing is, my house located at the side of the mountain while the mountain located at the west. Therefore, i watched the sunset everyday. Reversely, the sun ring down the curtains started with turning the sky into orange and yellow color, then pink and purple, finally a dark night approached.

God is almighty, isn't He?  He created this world beautifully.

-319 Supermoon-

19th March 2011, the moon had made closest approach to the earth in last 19 years.
I am so damn obsessed by astrological phenomenon.
Unfortunately, Malaysia wasn't the spot which near to the moon,
and moreover heavy clouds had block the moon from my sight...damn!

So, just like when u miss the Linkin Park Live concert,
all you can do is watch the damn video and pretend like u were there. 
Yea, it's what i am doing now....search pictures and videos through internet,
and 'SEE' the supermoon through these 2D mediums~it sucks but yet it's my only choice.

I am so in love with the astrological phenomenon till i once dreamed that
i want to get the ticket and catch a flight to the nearest country to the moon.
Well, i know, it's just a dream. I'm not that rich.
So, all i can do is wait...for another 20years for another chance to see the supermoon.